my realizations

At-last! everything is clear…now i know…all the questions in my mind are all answered and now i should stop thinking…And i can say that i can do my daily routine without  feel the wave of pain,  anger, confusion, low self-esteem, and maybe even jealousy. before, its so hard for me…i really suffered but now i realized that i should not put my self in one thing.its enough!! and i should always think about whats good about me, i should take good care of my self, do the things i normally enjoy,love and give my self a time..

If you ask me if I love you,
My answer is yes,
If you ask me if I need you,
My answer is I do,
If you ask me if I’ll leave you,
My answer is no,
And if you ask me if I’ll hurt you,
My answer you already know,
Never will I ever let you go.

If I ask you if you love me,
I know you’d say yes,
If I ask you if you need me,
I know the answer is you do,
If I ask you if you’d leave me,
I know you’d tell me no,
And if I ask you if you’ll hurt me,
The answer I already know,
Never will you ever let me go.

I tried my best to make things better. just for our relationship. but i realized that its inevitable to be this way, because we cant avoid the things that are going to  happen. we cant control our life…whew…what choice do i have??? Fulfill my premise and be filled with guilt and unhappiness or break my promise and be uncertain for tomorrow?what should i do…..hate me so i wont make you wait any longer..i don’t like you but………..I LOVE YOU!!!!

Regrets i have to let those words fall at the tip of my tongue all my so- called stable minded tales became false regrets i have for letting myself go through the motions where i’m having mixed emotions about where we are really taking this knowing that i can excite my intuitions of gloom and wretchedness but if thats all i have encountered how can i know that its not true?